A Better Place
Apr. 19th, 2012 08:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
archaesophiliaThe past couple of years have not been easy for me. At this time last year, all of my equilibrium was gone. I had no emotional reserves; I was living on the edge of my own mental collapse, keeping it at bay with alcahol and denial.
So, I did what I should have done much sooner; I got myself out of the situation. I moved several states away, and radically changed my life. I still do archaeology, but the dream of academic archaeology is firmly in the past. Now I'm finishing my master's and calling it done.
My new job is in North Dakota. I'm incredibly busy all of the time; the company I work for works with oil and gas clients a lot, and they are demanding, to put it lightly. I've been stressed, and busy, and tired.
The other day, someone asked me if I was happy. I had to think about it for a minute, but I can honestly say that I really am in a better place than I was a year ago. If I'm not happy, I'm closer to it than I have been in a while. And that's a good thing, to be in a better place.
So, I did what I should have done much sooner; I got myself out of the situation. I moved several states away, and radically changed my life. I still do archaeology, but the dream of academic archaeology is firmly in the past. Now I'm finishing my master's and calling it done.
My new job is in North Dakota. I'm incredibly busy all of the time; the company I work for works with oil and gas clients a lot, and they are demanding, to put it lightly. I've been stressed, and busy, and tired.
The other day, someone asked me if I was happy. I had to think about it for a minute, but I can honestly say that I really am in a better place than I was a year ago. If I'm not happy, I'm closer to it than I have been in a while. And that's a good thing, to be in a better place.